Graduation Gift

One of the perks that I enjoyed as a teacher was the definite beginning and ending of each school year.  I loved the new promise of setting up my classroom in the fall and I adored the ability on the last days of the year to look back and see what the students and I had accomplished together. This past weekend I had the privilege of sharing the joy of school ending once more, with three former students as they celebrated their high school graduations.

I knew these three as fifth graders – we spent a year together with our noses in books and pencils in our hands. We slogged through lessons in long division, reading comprehension, and writing essays and we had fun exploring the science of potatoes, learning about colonial children by churning butter, playing jacks, and walking on stilts. We even took time out to fight a reenacted Revolutionary War battle. While we tried to reach prescribed learning goals so that the state proficiency gods would be satisfied, it was also clear to me that these three and their classmates were going to offer our world something more precious than the stats could convey.  (Serious and studious Elizabeth had set a goal {that she reached!}  for herself to read every single Nancy Drew book…Haley was learning about hard work and how to shine both in choir and on a gymnastics mat…Carter was learning that doing the right thing was more important than being toughest or most popular.)  Now, seven years after they left my class, I know for sure that the world is a better place because of them and I can’t wait to see what they accomplish next!  We had a lot of fun together that year, and to be invited to celebrate their graduations with them was such a gift!

Here’s to all this year’s grads, with special hugs and prayers for Elizabeth, Haley, and Carter!

Elizabeth
Haley
Carter
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Awaken Sleeping Beauty (Not A-Woken) please.

I read in the news this weekend that with Disneyland’s reopening they have premiered a new ride featuring the story of Sleeping Beauty.  According to Disney, the intent was to celebrate the ‘rich history’ of the story and ‘beautiful scenic work’ of the old Sleeping Beauty movie. Good for them. But wait! A San Francisco newspaper is having a conniption about the last scene – claiming that since Sleeping Beauty was unresponsive, Prince Charming’s kiss to save her from unending sleep was wrong since Sleeping Beauty didn’t consent.  The argument is that kiss is a form of unwanted sexual advance that should not be portrayed.

Really.

Really?

Just for the record, I want to make my wishes known as an advance directive: If I am ever put under an endless sleep spell by a wicked witch queen, Karl (or any other well-meaning Prince Charming for that matter) who happens by and sees me lying there looking lovely in a beautiful gown, has my permission to kiss me (yes, on the lips!) in order to break the spell.  I am not a snowflake. I have a good ability to think rationally and I WILL understand that said Prince’s efforts were done with an innocent, fairy tale desire to help, and I pledge that I will not immediately press charges, nor will I wait twenty years then go to the press claiming unwanted sexual advances.

Sheesh.

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Can we make God’s creations more beautiful?

The other day at a store I saw a man who made me sad. He was covered in clothing from head to foot, only his hands and his face were visible. That isn’t what saddened me. Every inch of his face and hands that I could see, except small circles at his eyes and his fingernails, were covered in black tattoos. My real-life encounter with him, merely eye contact as we stood in proximity with each other, left me profoundly sad.  I carried it with me all day, days later, I still feel it.

Our culture is filled right now with people dissatisfied with themselves.  We hate our hair, we fight our weight. The fashion industry claims millions and millions of our dollars each year. From a new ‘do’ to Botox and plastic surgery to gender reassignment, dissatisfied people uncomfortable in their own skins seek to change who they are in order to feel more acceptable and complete to themselves and others.

I realize that I don’t know the tattooed man. I don’t know his heart at all. I’ve never heard his voice, I don’t know if he likes peanut butter or reading poetry. I know nothing about him, and I own that my conclusions about our brief connection come from ignorance of him. But. I can conclude that the desire and willingness to effect such drastic, permanent changes and completely obscure one’s face and hands with thick, roiling ink indicates some sort of well-depth dissatisfaction. Does he think himself ugly? Does he crave love and attention he didn’t get with rosy cheeks? Whatever his motivation, I wish that instead of the weak smile I managed before looking away and concentrating on my own business, I had smiled and greeted him.  I wish that I would have had the courage and love to approach him. I wish I could have found the words to assure him that he was perfectly created, and that Jesus not only loves him, but died for his salvation.  

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Desert Friends

We’ve just returned from three months in Arizona.  The last 10 days there, we ‘boondocked out’ in the desert.  In Wyoming we always boondock, and we wanted the benefit of being out and away from everyone so that we could see the night sky and hear the silence of the desert.  And it was wonderful.

The moon was at about half full when we arrived, so the first night we sat out watching the stars and enjoying seeing our moon-shadows. I woke up about 3 am on the second night, and since the moon had set by then, I decided to go out and get a bit of star-gazing in.

Dressed in robe and slippers and armed with a flashlight, I left the trailer to the sounds of Karl sleeping soundly.  I checked the ground for scorpions and rattlers, pulled my chaise lounge out about ten feet from the trailer, turned off the light, and settled in to stare upwards.  Majestic.  Beautiful. Silent stars speak loudly of the power and creativity of our Creator God.

I lay there for quite a while, praying without words. Once, I heard a little flutter by the trailer and absently thought that a moth, or maybe a bat had flown by. A few minutes later I heard another little noise and fleetingly thought maybe it was the slight breeze had moved the American Flag we had flying.

I was floating in the velvety night above me when something disturbed the gravel RIGHT beside me. I sat up quickly, not exactly alarmed and not really scared, just unsure what made the noise. I flicked on the flashlight and met a new friend. He was certainly as surprised as I to meet and stood still, checking me out as I returned the favor. A desert fox, not much bigger than my housecat (who was sleeping beside Karl safe and sound in the trailer), stood no more than ten feet away.  We stared at each other for several seconds before he turned slowly and melted into the dark desert. What a gift.

The next few nights, before he went to bed, Karl set up our game camera. We didn’t get a good shot of the little fella until the fourth night.  And, I share it here with you! 

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Understanding the desert

We’ve taken three rides on the desert in this past week.  Two were joyful, terrific and one was a bit of a trial, since we were in a wash filled with deep sand and gravel that made the going a bit hard, and we happened to get ourselves kinda-sorta lost for a little while (yes, we had a map AND a compass!). All three rides, though, were wonderful adventures filled with discovery and exploring, seeing places and things we’ve never seen before. Encountering new is one of the things I love most about riding our four-wheelers whether we are in the Wyoming mountains or the Arizona desert. Pioneering to new places satisfies a curiosity that is ever-present inside me.

I love to absorb the feeling and demeanor of a place.  The desert intrigues me.  From the big perspective, the desert is so very beautiful.  We’ve seen panoramic vistas that completely surround us and some of the biggest skies I’ve ever seen.  We’ve seen steep and rugged canyons lying in silent mist that epitomize beauty and serenity.  But close up, the desert is different.  Still beautiful, maybe.  Threatening and suspicious, unwelcoming and inhospitable, certainly.  Every plant has thorns or barbs, rocks are sharp and jagged-edged.

So much in the desert landscape points upwards — ancient saguaros, ocotillo stems, rock spires and spindles.  Sometimes I look at these and think they are pointing upwards to God, their Creator, giving Him credit for their life and each day.  In other moments, however, when the sun is beating down and the dust is in my eyes and throat, I wonder if the desert isn’t trying to send a message to me instead – letting me know that here I am an outsider and this world has no actual need or desire for my presence.  Those are the moments I think maybe those spires and cacti are, perhaps, flipping me off.

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Out of My Grasp

Karl and I took an excursion to the Grand Canyon recently, and I just can’t get it off my mind. I know in my brain that I stood at the edge of the rim, and I know that what I was seeing was a canyon about ten miles across and about a mile or so deep.  I stood there and I saw it.  But somehow, I can’t actually fathom it all. We walked and drove along the south rim for the entire day, looking at it from different angles.  Changing, ragged vistas lay in front of us showing a riot of colors and moods as the light changed through the day. Reds and greys morphed into more dusty browns and mauves as clouds began covering the endless blue sky of the morning. In the later afternoon we watched as snow squalls (It was a whole 33 degrees while we where there!) approach the far rim then drop into the canyon. As the storm moved towards us the canyon disappeared and snow swirled. Even so, I drove away at the end of the day certain that I didn’t have a full understanding of what I’d observed.  Perhaps if I flew over it, or rode a donkey down into it, or maybe if I floated down the Colorado and witnessed the canyon from the bottom up, (all activities I would dearly love to do!) maybe then I might feel as if I had a working understanding of it.

As I’ve pondered my inability to actually grasp the size and beauty of the Grand Canyon, it occurs to me that I feel the same way about understanding God.  I can’t. I try, but I am unable to completely take Him in to my intellectual mind. I do know Him.  I see Him in my life, I feel Him as He moves in my soul, but I can’t quite grasp who He is. I delve deep, I explore Him from different perspectives. I listen to sermons, I read His word, I ponder Jesus’ life and teachings, I look at the majesty of the world God created, and yet. And yet I am sure that I don’t know Him as I truly desire to. 

All this pondering has taken me let me know one thing for certain.  I will probably always be a tourist at the Grand Canyon.  Maybe I’ll someday ride that donkey or float those rapids, but I can’t imagine ever knowing the area so completely that it is part of me and I of it.  But with God, I am not willing to remain just a tourist. I am willing to spend the energy and resources it takes to immerse myself in His grace so that He is a part of me and I of Him.  

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Colorado River Exploring

There are some days that stand out as lessons on the beauty and care that God provides us. Today was one of those days. We took a boat tour across Lake Havasu and up the Colorado River. I wasn’t sure what to expect or what we’d see, but there wasn’t anything disappointing in what we encountered.

Look on the left of this big rock and see an Indian praying.
Another needle eye, so cool!
A duck in flight. Right beside us.
The consensus was that this was a muskrat but it sure looks like a swimming racoon to me!
The best sighting of the day: a turkey vulture and an osprey sitting together in a tree. The Osprey has been fishing, check his talons.
The osprey and his lunch.
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Joy and Pain of Discovery

The desert has a formidable, cautionary kind of beauty.  The mountains have strong, jagged angles with a hint of threat to them in shape and shadows, and the grey, powdery desert floor combines desolation, a lack of sympathy, and a surprise of shapes and colors. We took a 4-wheeler ride out to see a ghost town last week, riding nearly fifty miles (round trip) on a ‘main road’ which was really mostly a well-traveled path down a desert wash.

cholla cactus Beware!

I’d been warned about the abundance of rattle snakes- though it’s still too cold for them to be a real threat. I keep my eyes out for scorpions and I hope NOT to see one, ever.  No one, however, bothered to warm me about aggressive, militant cacti that might jump out and attack. Nope.  Discovered that little peril of the desert entirely in my own.  A week later, I still have the mark where one of the cholla barbs pierced through the leather of my boot and into my foot. It took about 15 minutes, two men and two pairs of needle-nosed pliers before all the little cholla barbs were safely removed from my boots. Yikes. 

Ocotillo cactus

Even so, it was a grand and stunning day filled with blessings and wonderful encounters.  We marveled at ocotillos green from the recent rains, an unexpected arch, at the saguaros so stoic and brave, at more wild burros, and at the freedom of unencumbered sky and wind. Though thousands have come before us on this road, we had the joy and excitement of exploring and discovering this wild place for ourselves. Even the attack of jumping cacti came with blessings: I’m told many people have a bad reaction to this kind of attack that includes swelling and pain, I just have one little mark.  And, to tell the truth, I’m thankful I was set upon by the cholla when I was instead of just a few moments earlier when I was squatting….well suffice it to say that a barb in my ankle was preferable to other places!

Karl under the arch
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The Joy of Surprise

We took a drive today. We crossed the Colorado River then drove up the shore a few miles on the California side. It was the second time we’d made the trip (the first was unsuccessful) to try to find the elusive (at least for us) wild burro. It was a terrific afternoon that gave us much more than we’d expected.

Surprise one: Big horn sheep! I get a little prideful about Wyoming’s abundant variety of wildlife. These were smaller than ‘ours’, but who knew there even were big horn sheep in California?

Surprise two: We found the wild burros! And they were friendly, especially when we offered our friendship and carrots.

Surprise three: a road off the river road took us up and over a rugged pass filled with steep cliffs, tall saguaro cactus, and this surprise: an arch.

Surprise four: We came south to get out of the cold, and it certainly is warmer here, but it did rain all day yesterday, and we woke up today to see snow on the mountains around us. We stopped for a few minutes on the shore of Lake Havasu, and I just couldn’t help feeling joyous at the contrast between the palm tree on the bank of the lake, and the stunning mountains covered with last night’s snow in the distance.

Surprise five: The sunset comes every evening, so by itself that might not count as surprising, yet, when you are open to and welcoming joy, it’s easy to be lifted and maybe even surprised when a solid blue sky suddenly transforms itself into a peach and tangerine glow that silhouettes the trees on the far shore.

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Desert Delight

Joy comes in all kinds of shapes and sizes. Here’s one example of my joy this week: Early Friday morning Karl and I drove out to the desert and found a spot on a ridge above a ‘wash’ to watch about a quarter of a mile section of a 425-mile race.  The racers were souped-up trucks and bugs – fitted to fly across sand and rocks at crazy speeds. These are dune buggies on steroids.  Very loud, very fast. I did a little math, the winner of the race averaged well over 82 miles per hour for over 5 hours.  While that sounds terrifying, given the chance, I’d like to take a ride  –  it looked like such fun. 

Anyway, for our part where we sat, it was kind of like watching a very odd parade. The race is a timed event and the vehicles all had a staggered start, with a vehicle starting every 30 seconds, so mostly we only saw one at a time. The track called for each racer to make three laps so we saw some (not all!) three times.  For long periods of time there would be nothing to see except the sky, the quiet desert, and the hills and rocks surrounding us on the horizon.  Then we’d hear a noise and get to watch a vehicle fly by for about 7-9 seconds. 

This racer had to change a tire in the dust.
Two racers!

It was more fun than maybe it sounds.  In the interims, we enjoyed each other, we relished in surveying our surroundings, and we talked with fans around us.  Thankfully, most of the people nearby us were knowledgeable – this wasn’t their first desert race – so we learned a lot and asked a lot of questions.

Can you see the jackalope hiding in the trees? 🙂

How was this a joyous experience?  In many ways. First, the desert.  I’m not sure I’m ready to call the powdery dust and scrubby plants populating the area beautiful, but there is a lot to see and take in.  The expanse of it reinforced for me about how big God is. The variety and heart of living things holding tenaciously onto life despite the extremes of dryness, heat, and cold give me hope and new resolve to endure the hard places in my own life. Then there’s the race.  For a day I was away from politics and intrigue. Instead, we were immersed in simple and exhilarating man vs nature, man vs machine, and man vs himself contests that celebrated all that is good and creative and adventurous in humans. We met people who were friendly and excited about their lives for the day, and unafraid. We breathed fresh, though dusty, air and felt the sunshine on our skin. It was a good day.

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