One of my most troublesome character flaws is that I tend to live in the future. I am always planning and looking forward, and that keeps me from living today sometimes. Right now, I am really struggling with this. If everything goes the way we hope, I have 89 work days left in my teaching career. If everything falls into place, we have about eight months before we will buy a one-way ticket to our island and move there permanently. I think about it all the time. I plan, I picture, I hope, I worry.
And. I forget to live today.
So, one of my two big new year’s resolutions is to live and be in the moment. (The other has to do with not using a certain naughty word – I’ve only slipped twice so far!!) I’m trying. I really am. I remind myself that this is the day the Lord made for me. I woke up this morning beside my husband – all warm and snuggly, and I nestled down deeper into the covers and into his arms and smiled. I spent some time (ok – it was a little over an hour), looking at Pinterest on my Kindle while I laid in bed a little later. I laughed so hard I had tears looking at funny things posted there. When I finally did roll out of bed, I stood for a moment and looked outside. It snowed last night – it actually looks kind of pretty out there. (I won’t let myself think about the below zero chill factor, not right now.) So here we go. Only God knows what really will happen in 2016. I know the plans I have made for me, but His plans may be different, so I am going to keep my focus on today.
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